Suburban Senshi IRC Chat #794: “Sakura's Greatest Mistake”
#794: “Sakura's Greatest Mistake”

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Topic is -= Because everyone makes mistakes and not all endings are happy ones =-

[17:55] *** S.X. Aino [user-999who@TARDIS6787.panopticon7.gallifrey.sen] has joined #suburbansenshi
[17:55] <@spiritflame> Irasshai S.X. Aino
[17:56] <FireFly_9> Sakura-chan? Where is your OP sign?
[17:56] <S.X. Aino> Hi Hotaru.
[17:56] <FireFly_9> Not... "Hotaru-P?"
[17:57] <S.X. Aino> Hotaru.... I did something stupid.
[17:57] <FireFly_9> Eh?
[17:58] <S.X. Aino> I.... I'm over 1800 years old. I've been married. I've seen people born, have kids, grow old and die. I'm a scientist whose knowledge spans this universe and all of time. And I.... am a complete fool.
[17:58] <FireFly_9> What happened?
[17:59] <S.X. Aino> Oh, I was so clever, so smart, so witty. Someone was complaining about the number of future children showing up here, like myself and Lady Serenity
[18:00] <S.X. Aino> So I said, why not twist their logic against them and make their head explode by making a new lifeform with my DNA and somone from the present, making a future-present child
[18:00] <FireFly_9> Sakura-chan
[18:01] <S.X. Aino> You gotta understand. I've seen lifeforms who live their whole lives in minutes, in hours. I thought that crafting a lifeform who would live for 24 hours would be a "cool" experiment. Like having a damn sea-monkey. only humanoid.
[18:01] <FireFly_9> I... never would have expected something like that from you.
[18:02] <S.X. Aino> Well my reasoning was that children grow happily, then are corrupted by the pain of the world and the little compromises we as adults have to make from day to day to just get by.
[18:03] <S.X. Aino> I resolved to give the child the happiest 24 hours of her life so that she could experience a warm, loving life without any of the pain that comes with growing up.
[18:03] <FireFly_9> Sakura-chan, you played god.
[18:04] <S.X. Aino> We... we Time Lords are so used to looking down on the other species, to thinking the universe is ours to do with as we will... that I didn't really think about it like that. I just pressed on.
[18:05] <S.X. Aino> And at first I was just interested in her like an experiment, asking her epistimological questions and watching her experience the world and noting her reactions... but then... I got to liking her... I mean she was my child.
[18:05] <S.X. Aino> I never had kids.
[18:05] <FireFly_9> And?
[18:06] <S.X. Aino> And... then I was called away. Duties to perform. I couldn't spend time with her! I... abandoned her... my baby. By the time I got back she was a pile of degraded DNA goo.
[18:07] <FireFly_9> If it helps any... my father routinely does these things without batting an eye.
[18:07] <S.X. Aino> It doesn;'t help. When pop saw me, he asked me "what the hell [was i] doing?" He was so angry and dissappointed.
[18:08] <S.X. Aino> And I knew, inside, he was right. I dunno why the hell I did it. FOR A LARK I did it.
[18:08] <S.X. Aino> I should know better. But I was frelling playing around. So happy to have found my folks alive and to be with them in the past I just went wild.
[18:09] <S.X. Aino> I used life like a toy.
[18:09] <FireFly_9> At least... you know what you did was wrong.
[18:09] <S.X. Aino> after the fact repentance is worthless.
[18:09] * S.X. Aino feels sick
[18:10] <S.X. Aino> I ...
[18:11] <S.X. Aino> Have you ever, in your life, done something boneheaded, that you know, you KNOW you shouldn't have done, but by the time your brain registers it it's already accomplished? Because that's what happened to me, only being as frelling SMART as I am when I frack up I frack up good.
[18:12] <FireFly_9> I cannot judge you.
[18:13] <S.X. Aino> Oh yes you can. I know you think less of me. And I know I think less of me. I don't blame you.
[18:14] <FireFly_9> Sakura-chan. I think you did something you will have to live with for the rest of your... lives.
[18:15] * S.X. Aino nods.
[18:15] <S.X. Aino> Please don't tell mom, she doesn't know. She'd... break or something.
[18:18] <FireFly_9> All right.
[18:18] <S.X. Aino> I need... to go.... meditate or something.
[18:19] * FireFly_9 gives you a hug
[18:20] <S.X. Aino> Thank you.
[18:21] <S.X. Aino> When I've come to terms with what I've done, I'll take my OP sign back. But until then, I'm not fit to wield power.
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[18:21] <@spiritflame> Irasshai GERMATOID
[18:22] <FireFly_9> Papa...
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[18:32] <FireFly_9> "Is it so small a thing / To have enjoy'd the sun, / To have lived light in the spring, / To have loved, to have thought, to have done...
[18:33] <FireFly_9> Don't be too hard on yourself Sakura-chan.
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[19:08] <Bear> ? Responsibility is a learned behavior. Sakura, to her pain, has learned.
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