I’m not feeling very good about myself today. I guess I build walls around myself because I don’t want people to get too close. Sometimes I wish I could just be normal and not such a Stalinist.

I think my stomach is getting bigger. I ordered the AbMaster from those infomercials, I hope it will come soon. I also hope I can stick with it this time. I did the "Abs of Steel" workout pretty religiously (ha) for about two weeks but now the tapes are just collecting dust.

Bush is still really pissing me off. Why can't I just forget about him?