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#1615
“Healing the Heart” [11:08] *** Thu May 20 2010 - LOGGING START *** [11:08] *** Topic is - :( - [12:57] *** Set by @spiritflame on Thu May 20 11:08 2010 [11:08] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> So then I told him to go date a flying creep!! [11:08] *** Crwn_FruT_Gamer [wifi.mcdonalds.co.jp] has joined #suburbansenshi [11:09] <FireFly_9> That's not how the saying goes, Sempai. [11:23] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Minako-chan, can I talk to you? [11:23] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> You're not going to breathe funny over the phone or talk to me about your turtle, are you :/ [11:23] *** FireFly_9 [ruin@ntt1.docomo.jp] has left #suburbansenshi (See you, Sempai) [11:23] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> No :P [11:25] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I just wanted to talk to you about something [11:25] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> What?? [11:25] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> MAko-chan. [11:25] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Oh [11:25] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> This morning as I was walking to work, she just blew right by me on her bike without even saying hello. [11:26] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Maybe she didn't see you, or was in a big rush?? [11:26] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Maybe. [11:26] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> But it still kinda stung me. [11:26] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Hit it home that it was finally done between us, that I don't even deserve the time of day from her anymore. [11:26] * [gTV]C'est_la_V repeats what she just said [11:28] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I know, I know [11:28] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> But even if I keep giving the benefit of the doubt it still hurts. [11:28] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Motoki-san... [11:28] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> The engagement broke off months ago... [11:28] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> she doesn't owe you anything anymore. [11:29] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I know that! [11:29] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> But what, we're not even friends anymore?! [11:29] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I mean, it's like... I've been totally erased. [11:29] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Moh, she probably didn't even see you. [11:29] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> She rides fast. [11:29] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> >< [11:30] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Yeah but even other times she doesn't even talk to me anymore. [11:30] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> You've been dumped a lot, Minako-chan [11:30] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> ... thanks for that [11:30] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Sorry [11:30] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> but I mean [11:30] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I just want to know how the hell you got over it [11:30] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> got yourself someone [11:32] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Because right now I find it so hard to trust anyone [11:33] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I just feel like i'm going to get fooled again [11:36] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> ... I don't think she ever fooled you [11:36] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I'm just still so confused and hurt I don't even know what I'm thinking [11:36] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Motoki-san. [11:36] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> I've talked to her a bit [11:37] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> She thought she saw something in you, but in the end there were just things she couldn't handle [11:37] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> It's not that she hates you, but you just weren't the right one [11:38] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> But I loved her so much, even if she mocked me all the time about my furpals [11:38] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> It sounds like you weren't happy about that [11:39] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Yeah but I was willing to take it because on balance it was such a small thing compared to all the good things about her. [11:39] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Sounds like you were settling... [11:39] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Sounds like I was compromising. [11:39] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Good relationships are built on that. [11:39] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Give and take, not "my way or the highway" [11:40] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Look if Mako-chan wasn't willing to compromise then you're better off, no? [11:40] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> You'd just be unhappy and so would she. [11:54] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> But I loved her so much, I would have-- and did do everything I could for her. [11:55] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> You have to let her go... [11:55] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> It's hard but you have to accept that she doesn't love you anymore. [11:55] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> That's what scares me [11:55] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> That it's so easy for the other person to just turn away, turn off like that. [11:56] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> If people can just do that... [11:56] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Then what the hell is the point of trying? [11:56] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I mean why bother, why not just stay alone? [11:57] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Because you want to share your life with someone, to make them happy. [11:57] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> She wasn't happy anymore. [11:57] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> >< [11:57] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> How did you survive being broke up with so many times? [11:59] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> I won't lie... each time it made me cry so much, and curl up for days, not wanting to eat or do anything [11:59] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> I wondered if there was something wrong with me [11:59] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Why everyone hated me so much, or if I was just stupid for believing in love. [11:59] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> That's how I feel [12:07] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> I just made up my mind to keep trying, no matter what [12:07] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Eventually I got lucky :) [12:08] <// J_Daito //> IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE AMIRITE [12:08] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Go away bakayaro!! [12:08] * // J_Daito // is away: hahaha [12:08] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> But I mean, to just be able to bounce back... [12:08] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I almost feel guilty for trying again. [12:08] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Why?? [12:09] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Because when I picked Mako-san, I really meant it when I said I just wanted her. [12:09] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I gave my whole heart and soul totally. [12:09] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I wasn't looking for some random date or hookup. [12:09] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> If I have to start over now, it feels like I'm... whoring myself out in a way [12:09] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Like "oh I said you were the one but now you're not let me go find another" [12:39] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> But that's not how it is [12:39] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> She left you, you didn't decide to run off [12:39] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> you're free not by choice [12:39] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> and if you don't want to be alone, then it's your right to look [12:40] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Yeah. [12:40] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> It still feels like I'm betraying, though, even though there's nothing left to betray. [12:40] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Was there ever anything there? [12:40] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> You have to believe there was... [12:41] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> But if there was why was it so EASY for her to just throw me away? [12:41] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Maybe it wasn't easy. [12:41] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> You're only thinking it was because you only see the moment when the axe gets you [12:41] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> but she might have been agonizing over it for a long time [12:42] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Yeah well if that was the case she could have talked to me seriously and worked it out [12:42] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I would have bent over backwards to fix whatever was wrong [12:42] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> instead I got shut out and then shut down [12:42] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> So for me, from my POV it was pretty easy [12:42] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> Because she didn't even *try* [12:43] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I did all the trying and now i'm the one doing all the crying [12:43] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Moh. [12:43] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> You know what helped me survive? [12:43] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> My friends. [12:44] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> When I was dumped, they were there for mew [12:44] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> ^me [12:45] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> They helped me laugh and smile again [12:45] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> You have to look to what's still good in your life, and to the people who still care for you [12:45] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> They'll be there [12:54] * Crwn_FruT_Gamer nods [12:55] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I just figured I'd be over it by now, it's been so long [12:55] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> Well you cared a lot, so... [12:55] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> But you really have to do what I said and look to the future [12:55] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> There's better things to come!! [12:55] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> :D [12:55] <Crwn_FruT_Gamer> I hope you're right, Minako-chan [12:55] <[gTV]C'est_la_V> I am!! [12:56] * [gTV]C'est_la_V gives you a thumbs up!! [12:56] * Crwn_FruT_Gamer is away: thanks, you made me feel better :D [12:56] * [gTV]C'est_la_V is away: that's what friends do!! [12:56] *** Thu May 20 2010 - LOGGING STOP *** |
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