Suburban Senshi IRC Chat #573: Reflections”
#573: “Reflections”

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[12:11] <Cést_la_V> Hi Hotaru-chan, are you back from Paris??
[12:11] <FireFly_9> Yes, I tried to stop Haruka-poppa from stalking Michiru-momma's concert partners, but to no avail.
[12:12] <Cést_la_V> LOL tell me the story!!
[12:12] <FireFly_9> Maybe tomorrow, Minako-san, I'm not in the best of moods
[12:13] <Cést_la_V> ?
[12:13] <FireFly_9> Well, you may not know this, but every year since I came to live with Michiru-momma and Haruka-poppa, I made a trip to Paris to visit some of my friends from the private school I went to in the summers when one break from Mugen Academy.
[12:22] <Cést_la_V> Oh?? How was it??
[05:23] * FireFly_9 sighs

[12:23] <Cést_la_V> Daijobu?
[12:23] <FireFly_9> mmm
[12:23] <FireFly_9> Every time I go to Paris, it's the same thing. At first I feel very relaxed and comfortable, as if I could stay there forever.
[12:23] <Cést_la_V> But?
[12:24] <FireFly_9> Well, things start to subtly remind me that I don't really belong in that milieu.
[12:24] <Cést_la_V> How so?
[12:24] <FireFly_9> I was... well... "ditched".
[12:24] <Cést_la_V> ditched??
[12:25] <FireFly_9> Someone used me as a convenient pretext to go off and do their own thing with someone else. I was supposed to go view the Mona Lisa at the Louvre with an old classmate
[12:25] <Cést_la_V> ...
[12:25] <Cést_la_V> That happens sometimes, you know...
[12:26] <FireFly_9> Meh, I don't feel bad about it, there was no malice behind it, and it was a clever little move that I might have thought of...
[12:27] <Cést_la_V> YOU, Hotaru-chan?
[12:27] <FireFly_9> Well, if I was that sort of person.
[12:27] <Cést_la_V> Well I'm sure they didn't mean anything by it...
[12:28] <FireFly_9> I know. I think I was used as an opportune pretext. But I consider it the universe's way of reminding me that no matter how comfortable I am in other situations, no matter how well I might get along with others, in the final analysis everyone is out for themselves and I have to rely on my own wits and devices.
[12:29] <Cést_la_V> I think Hotaru-chan is being a little harsh...
[12:29] <FireFly_9> I don't mean to sound so, nor do I mean to say the genuine interactions I had with my friends were worthless. It's just that I have to watch how comfortable I become with the perception that I'm actually meshing into a group where I am in fact not.
[12:32] <Cést_la_V> Maybe you're overanalyzing?
[12:34] <FireFly_9> I don't know... perhaps I am a little irritated about the whole thing.
[12:34] <Cést_la_V> Just remember you have friends who care about you
[12:35] <FireFly_9> I know. :) I just consider this a friendly nudge by the universe to remind me to not get too complacent...
[12:39] <Cést_la_V> ...
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