IRC Chat #1444
“Discomfort with the late-night Cognitive Process”
[00:11] * FireFly_9 sits alone in the darkened corner half-illumined by the light of her lamp.
[00:12] * FireFly_9 presses a finger to the stained-glass shade, causing the golden chained fixgture to sway to and from in the light, alternately casting light and deeper shadow on her features.
[00:13] * FireFly_9 watches a lone albino spider scurry on her lamp and irritatedly goes to find a brush to swat it away.
[00:14] * FireFly_9 swats it off angrily; it has interfered with her contemplations.
[00:16] <Oronde> hotaru?
[00:16] <FireFly_9> Yes?
[00:16] <Oronde> hey..you..um..ok?
[00:16] <FireFly_9> I merely am.
[00:17] <Oronde> hmms...ok..
[00:17] <FireFly_9> Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
[00:17] <FireFly_9> The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
[00:17] <FireFly_9> The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
[00:19] * FireFly_9 rolls her fingers on the arm of her chair slowly, finding slight solace in the repeated rhythm
[00:23] * FireFly_9 lets a wry smile cross her lips for an instant.
[00:23] <FireFly_9> ...A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun...
[00:24] <FireFly_9> what rough beast, its hour come round at last, Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?
[00:25] * FireFly_9 curls up in her black velvet armchair, seemingly small and frail against its foreboding mass
[00:26] * FireFly_9 mires herself in the shadows
[00:29] * FireFly_9 hums along to the song "I'm only happy when it rains"
[00:30] <FireFly_9> Sleep eludes me this night.
[00:30] <FireFly_9> Fatigue nips at my flesh but there is no comfort in my mind.
[00:31] <Oronde> hotaru..why somehow act so..emo?/ *sighs.*
[00:32] <FireFly_9> Oronde, if I was inclined to move I would gut you where you stand.
[00:33] <Oronde> I meant no offens.e.but it seems true.. are you emo type person?
[00:33] * FireFly_9 just lets the light of the lamp play across her features, which are at once irritated and world-weary
[00:33] * Oronde sits down...
[00:33] <FireFly_9> No.
[00:33] <FireFly_9> I am not an "emo type person".
[00:33] <Oronde> um..you not?/ *blinks.*
[00:33] <FireFly_9> I simply think about things.
[00:33] <Oronde> hmms I see...
[00:34] <FireFly_9> If you can only pigeonhole my contemplates as being "Emo" then that is your problem, not mine.
[00:35] <Oronde> is there something oyu can think..of..um..maybe osmething postive and happy stuff?
[00:35] <FireFly_9> Yes.
[00:35] <FireFly_9> The coming of the eschaton.
[00:35] <Oronde> the what haotaru?
[00:35] <@Shinji Ikari> Your mom.
[00:35] <FireFly_9> The rending of everything~ the ssweet dissolution when worry and care ceases to be.
[00:36] <FireFly_9> When all can be renewed.
[00:37] * FireFly_9 shifts a bit in her chair, batting away the spider which seems to be detemrined to harass her.
[00:37] * @Wolfwood changes topic to `[00:35] <FireFly_9> The coming of the eschaton. [00:35] <@Shinji Ikari> Your mom.`
[00:37] <FireFly_9> My mother as the Eschaton. What an interesting thought.
[00:38] * FireFly_9 stretches
[00:38] <Guu> Eh. You go to the trouble of cleansing reality from corruption and strife, bringing the bright new dawn... and people inevitably f[BLEEP]k things up all over again.
[00:38] <Oronde> hotaru..
[00:38] <@Shinji Ikari> They don't want your kind around their kids!
[00:38] <FireFly_9> Yes Guu. So true.
[00:38] <Oronde> you hardly never knew your mom do you?/ you..really missed her?
[00:39] <FireFly_9> It's true I barely knew my mother.
[00:39] <FireFly_9> It's hard to miss what I can barely recall.
[00:39] <Oronde> .......
[00:39] <Oronde> I'm sorry..
[00:39] <FireFly_9> But I rmember a warmth, a tenderness.
[00:39] * FireFly_9 waves dismissively.
[00:39] <FireFly_9> It's fine.
[00:40] <Oronde> is it from your mom you recall?
[00:40] <FireFly_9> Yes.
[00:40] <Oronde> I lost my mom when i wasl ittle hotaru..
[00:41] <FireFly_9> Oh?
[00:41] * FireFly_9 leans forward, interested to hear what ORonde has to say.
[00:41] <Oronde> however..I thanked her..for many things..
[00:41] <FireFly_9> That's good.
[00:42] <Oronde> my mother. was very caring for me...and...she loved me os much..
[00:42] * FireFly_9 nods
[00:42] <Oronde> my dad is..a different story..in shor.t.he;s drug addicted.
[00:42] <FireFly_9> It is good to have those who care fro you.
[00:42] <FireFly_9> :(
[00:43] <FireFly_9> A horrible situation.
[00:43] <Guu> Hmm. The human body, the human mind. Both betrayed by their own fragility.
[00:43] <FireFly_9> Indeed.
[00:43] <Guu> I hope evolution tries harder next time.
[00:44] <FireFly_9> Evolution
[00:44] <FireFly_9> gives us minds so that we can worry.
[00:45] <FireFly_9> Or waste on thoughts on mundane things of no consequence
[00:45] <Oronde> hotaru...
[00:45] <Oronde> may I offer you some thoguhtful advice?
[00:45] <Guu> And thus, evolution is ultimately self-defeating ^_^
[00:45] <FireFly_9> Sometimes I think the lower-order animals have it better.
[00:45] <FireFly_9> They never ascend high enough on the pyramid of needs to worry about anything beyond foodm shelter and reproduction.
[00:46] <FireFly_9> Every moment is a fight for survival.
[00:47] <FireFly_9> There is no opportunity for dissappointments.
[00:47] <FireFly_9> Or for "What-ifs"
[00:47] <Oronde> hotaru?
[00:47] <FireFly_9> Yes Oronde
[00:48] <Oronde> I think like maybe if you lvoe your mother so much..I think she be very happy if you think of nice happy thoughts....
[00:48] <Oronde> I mean I know oyul ove dr. tomoe your father..but don;t let him get to you..you on oyur own free wil lright?
[00:49] <FireFly_9> .... Papa doesn't "get to me"
[00:49] <Guu> ¬_¬
[00:49] <FireFly_9> These are my own musings and conclusions.
[00:50] <Oronde> ok...that;s good hotaru I..um..*thinks..8 I may like to ask you..to please maybe for your mother's sake..and fond eternal memory of her..jsut think of happy thoughts...perhaps?
[00:50] <Guu> Even I think "think happy thoughts" is a lousy thing to say to the despondent, and I think human emotions are a joke.
[00:50] <FireFly_9> Thank you, Guu
[00:51] <Guu> Oronde, you mean well but your intentions would be better served by you never speaking, ever.
[00:51] <Oronde> no. that;s not true!!
[00:51] <Oronde> don;t listen to guu human emotinos are never..ever a joke!!!
[00:51] <FireFly_9> I know full well they aren't a joke.
[00:51] <Oronde> they never had or ever..a joke.. human emotinos.are...special..
[00:51] <FireFly_9> But nor are they run by light switches that you can flip on and off.
[00:52] <FireFly_9> Sadness must be explored and allowed to run its course until exhausted.
[00:52] <Guu> Hey Oronde, way to focus on the least important part of my statement ^_^
[00:53] <FireFly_9> Forcing someone to "think ahppy thoughts" just buries the problem.
[00:54] <FireFly_9> It doesn't allow them to be addressed or acknowledged.
[00:56] * FireFly_9 yawns tiredly
[00:56] <FireFly_9> I shall give in to sleep at last.
[00:57] * FireFly_9 nods to everyone and dozes off.
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[00:58] <Guu> And now the song is over now, the song is over now ^_^
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